So many good things happening right now…and I couldn’t be happier. First off, since I started doing Jenny Craig about 6 weeks ago, I have now lost 10 lbs. and 2 inches all around (for a total of 8 inches, bust, waist, abdomen, hips). It’s funny I don’t really feel all that much skinnier, but I am I guess. My goal is to lose about 20 lbs. by my birthday in October - so I think that is an achievable goal. Then from there we will see, I definitely have more I can lose after that.

In other news, I think I may have a new job coming up…one I’m really excited about. OK, so I’ve only been at my current place about 7 months - but this other job is a lot more interesting and gives me the opportunity to really get into some things that I like. More to come on that…

And, finally, I have a new man in my life. I won’t say much, cause I don’t really blog about things I really care about (as they happen that is), and, he reads this blog (though I don’t think very often)…but I will say that things are moving along nicely (and slowly, which is good) and I’m very happy. I’ve been friends with him for awhile, and somehow in those days of literally talking 7 hours a day, it all of a sudden just kind of changed. But, he is everything I’ve ever wanted…and things are just very easy and natural. No drama, no wondering what he thinks or worrying about what I’m doing or what I think. We really just get each other, and understand each other… and have a lot of fun together. It just feels right.

Anyway, I feel like I’ve finally grown up and things are coming together for me. And, I’m finally finding some peace with myself and the decisions I’ve made (and continue to make) in my life. So, cheers to that!

Well, here is another weekend update from yours truly. I know, boring. I have a few other things to say, but just haven’t had the energy and motivation to write coherent thoughts. So, for now you get the boring “I know you don’t give a shit what I do but I’m gonna write it anyway cause it’s my blog” weekend update. Feel free to stop while you’re ahead. I’m pretty tired though after being up until 4 am two nights in a row (I’m entirely too old for that), so this shouldn’t be too painful. And, one day I promise I’ll finish tagging all my previous posts. It’s irking me.

On Friday I headed out to the grand opening of Rain in Fairfax. One of my friends is the DJ there so I promised him I would come out. It was a nice club and the music was of course good. I’m not sure how well it will hold up in that area, but there were a lot of people there and quite a diverse crowd. Hopefully it will do well. I hear the food is good as well. It seems like it will turn into a good spot to go to if you live in the suburbs and just don’t feel like making the trip into DC or even Arlington.

Saturday I had a mini-sorority reunion in Arlington. We ended up at Mr. Days (gag) and ran into about 20 people from college that I haven’t seen in years. It’s always funny to see people from college, most of the sorority girls I saw it was cool to run into them, but I mean, I wasn’t friends with them then and I don’t hang out with them now, so I didn’t really care. There are some girls that are still really into it and hang out with the same people all the time, and while it’s well and good to keep some of those relationships…most of it I just don’t get. Maybe I just wasn’t cool enough or something. And, well, I also ran into my ex-boyfriend, which is always a joy. Luckily that encounter was short. It’s funny he asked me how I was and what I was up to, and I kind of answered him and then I didn’t even ask him what he was doing. It didn’t even occur to me. I think that’s better though.

Sunday I met up with BSG in Georgetown for a little shopping and ladies lunch. I was not so impressed with the selection of clothes out right now, everything is really big and baggy and that does nothing for anyone’s body, least of all mine. From there I headed over to Shirlington to catch Crave at Signaure Theatre with a couple of friends. It was an interesting show, definitely one that I think you need to see multiple times to get the most benefit from. Afterwards we had dinner at Luna and then I finally came home. Sadly I missed Justin on the Grammy’s, but I’m sure I can find it on YouTube later.

This week is my last week at my job, my last day is Thursday. I took Friday off just because, and I start my new gig next Monday. I have already been busy with the new company, and am looking forward to starting there, although I am a little bit nervous. My current job is keeping me busy too, they want me to finish up a lot of things that I just don’t want to or care about anymore. I’m trying to get motivated to do it, as of course I don’t want to burn any bridges…but it’s really hard when I just don’t have my heart in it and I know it. I think it’s shitty that they’re trying to squeeze the last of my energy out on things that help the company…and even worse is the fact that I just don’t care.

So, I have this ex-boyfriend who is now married. I’ve discussed him before, and we remain good friends. We don’t get to talk that much anymore, but we’re still on good terms. He and his wife have had a lot of problems over the past couple years (mostly because she was 17 when they got married and she is immature, and total trailer trash besides that) and I’ve helped him through it - just by being an outside person to vent to.

Anyway, on Friday night/Saturday morning I came home to a message on Myspace that seemingly came from him, only I know it didn’t. This is what it said:

I was woundering if you could send me your number so we could talk hope to hear from you soon.
Love Always B

Now, first of all, he would never write me something that retarded. Second of all, he would never misspell the word “wondering.”

I knew something was up so I emailed his Army email and let him know that I got that message, and that I didn’t think it was from him.

I came home on Saturday to an IM from him which said that he was sorry he had to write me that message and that she was standing over his shoulder and made him write it. It also said something about “please reply and just say something about how you’re sorry and would never disrespect me or A (”A” is his wife), and it won’t happen again. Because she will see it. Good job recognizing I didn’t send the first message.”

So, I logged into Myspace and saw what he meant…

AM,
That last message was sent by A. She was rightfully upset about the content and volume of your messages and comments. They were inappropriate, considering I am a married man. They were largely the reason why I removed all of the females from my friends list previously. Then when I sent everyone friend requests again you sent me the one message about playing halo. At the end of the message you put something along the lines of “Have a good one baby! MUAH!” After that I believe I sent you a message telling you to tone everything down and you have done so in your comments. They, however, are still flirtatious in nature and whatever happened between us in the past is, well…in the past. I know we have known each other for a little over 10 years now and because of that you should have enough respect for me and my wife. I perceive the way you talk as the way I’ve always heard you talk and when I was single, it was harmless. I believe that it is still harmless. However, it is an unnecessary nuisance for me or A to have to deal with wondering what your intentions are. In the military, perception is reality and most of my friends on myspace are people I work with or have worked with and they know my wife. So if they see something like that then they might get the wrong impression and that may lower their respect for me. So…for now you will remain on my friends list but I ask you as a friend to keep your comments to yourself or else I will just have to stop talking to you altogether. I’m sorry I wasn’t more explicit with my instructions to you before but I didn’t expect your flirtatious personality to keep getting the best of you. Hopefully we won’t have any more problems in the future.
Later,
B

Now, please tell me that is not a hilarious piece of shit. In fact I think the whole thing is a little insulting and kind of offensive. I think my favorite parts include the idea about perceptions and being in the military, followed by my “flirtatious personality” getting the best of me, even though he believes it to be harmless. Oh, and also the whole idea that apparently I still want him after 10 years (which was, as he said, in the past), by writing a stupid comment that I would have left on anyone’s page - including a girl’s! Let’s also point out the fact that the comment he referenced (with the MUAH) was left in MAY, on his birthday. And since then have only left two messages, dumb ones at that - talking about playing Halo! I also enjoy the fact that he admitted that she made him take all of his female friends off his friends list (which is true) and the fact that I should “follow instructions” if I want to remain his friend.

This, is further proof as to why girls can be stupid psycho bitches, and why you shouldn’t be 24 and married to some girl who is barely 19. Now, I understand if I really had been a severe threat or even wanted him in some way…but seriously she has no reason to even bitch about me at all. Anyway, I thought the whole situation was funny and wanted to share the laughs.

I’m not sure which is worse…the fact that she “made” him write that to me, or that fact that he did it. In any case, I didn’t respond, and I’ll just wait until he can get online and IM me and we can talk. I feel like yes, our little relationship was 10 years ago in 9th grade…but I don’t feel that to continue our friendship we should have to revert back to 9th grade behavior.

Maybe when he grows up and grows some balls then we can be friends again.

Well, everyone who reads this blog knows that I’m single. And that I have my ups and downs on whether or not I really want to dive into a relationship…I guess it’s just a matter of finding the right person.

But even through the many bad dates and relationships I’ve had - I was thinking there are some things I miss about being in a relationship. Even through the fights and fuss, and more than the steady movie/event date and obligatory gift giving. More than just the stability and comfort of the routine you fall into when you’re in a relationship. It’s the intimacy I miss, and the little things you don’t often think about as they happen…but remember when they’re gone.

Sometimes I think maybe I’ve become bitter from being single for so long…but then I still remember the good things, and it reminds me that I want it again someday…

• I miss the hellos and goodbyes. The smile and rush of happiness you feel when you see him after being away for a long time, and the comfort and reassurance of the last hug before he goes away.
• I miss getting all dressed up to go out with him. And feeling like a princess when he looks at me and tells me how beautiful I am.
  
• I miss the feel of his hand on the small of my back, safely guiding and guarding me through a crowd.
• I miss how perfectly you can fit into the crook of his neck, your head falling into place on his shoulder.
• I miss that he knows when I’m done eating, because I start picking at and playing with my food.
• I miss the little happy buzz of seeing his name in my phone when he calls.
  
• I miss him knowing just the right buttons to push to aggravate me, but not make me mad.
• I miss knowing that yep,at the end of the night I’m going home with him - and that’s all I want to do.
• I miss the feeling of him brushing the hair gently from my eyes.
• I miss waking up in the morning and him pulling me closer.
• I miss making love…and meaning it.
  
• I miss picking out goofy little cards and gifts to give him for no reason.
• I miss cooking dinner and baking cookies for him - cause he thinks it’s so amazing.
• I miss holding hands and other little PDAs.
  

Yes, it’s true. I may be a smartass and a sassy, scandalous single gal, but deep down I’m just a hopeless romantic.